Ah, confusion...

I'm sure you've all experience confusion at some point or another. There are varying degrees of confusion, from mild to extreme. At this point in time, I am experiencing extreme confusion.

I thought God wanted one thing, now I am not so sure. Now I feel him pulling me in what seems to be a different direction. I could be wrong that the directions are different, but they sure seem to be. Another thing is that circumstances seem to be moving away from what I originally thought to be his plan.

Was I wrong originally? Am I wrong now? Has the plan for me shifted? Was that plan just for that moment? Could both things be His plan for me? Where do I go from here?

At this point I'm venturing to a new project, which at the moment isn't going very well. I believe this venture is something He wants from me, but it is being very difficult right now. Of course, His way is not the easy way. I believe that this is so we can lean on Him so He can show His strength. But he has already been carrying me.

It pays to remember what someone reminded me this week... James 1:12 Blessed is the man who does endure trial, for when he has been proved, he shall receive the crown of life which the Master has promised to those who love Him. I know I am going through various trials right now, all striking at once, but I also know that He is there, carrying me. And I know what is waiting at the end of this race I am running. That will have to be enough for now...